Here's Looking At You

Did you ever think that maybe you're the one with the problem and not them? Have you ever thought that maybe it was you who had the misconceptions all this time but you were too arrogant to actually look at the mirror, believing you were fine to begin with, so instead, you'd directly blame your anger on someone else, on him? Well, wake up. You're not as perfect or wondeful as you think you may be. Beneath that smile and "nice" personality, lies some crap you don't want the world to actually see. Here's to looking at you, you selfish woman.

You can't expect him to give you the attention you want. You can't expect that boy to actually get you, you know what I mean? To him, you brushing your hand against his doesn't mean you want him to hold your hand, it's just your hand brushing against his. To him, you feeling all chilly doesn't translate to "Can you hug me?" but rather, "Brrr, it's freakin' cold." To him, awkward silences do net tell him that you want to cuddle up and hear him say those three words with eight letters. Hell, even Blair Waldorf had to almost beg Chuck Bass to spit those words out. And to him, you talking about guys you're into doesn't tell him that you're playing his game since he also loves to talk about girls who are hotter and prettier than you, it just tells him, "Dude, we're just the same!" [I don't know if the girls he's talking about are really hotter than you, but if he talks about them with so much enthusiasm and only complements you when you're wearing something really nice, which I know is rare, then I guess they are.] Maybe next time, if you want to get what you want, maybe you should be vocal about it. They say so, themselves, if you want something, tell them. C'mon, you expect him to understand your signs and gestures? And when he doesn't? What, you'll try to make a scene, make a fuss about it, and when he still doesn't notice, you'd get so pissed off? And him, seeing you getting so pissed off, he's wonder, "Where'd I go wrong? What'd I do?" And you, being the selfish, uncompromising b*tch that you are, you'll get pissed because he's so lost. It's your fault he's lost. It's your fault you didn't tell him, "Hey, I want your attention now. Can't you show the people around us that I'm someone special to you and that you need to spend quality time with me?" Wait, don't tell me you couldn't tell him. Oh right, you don't want to because you don't want to come out as a selfish and possessive woman. Well, guess what, you are, ok? You may try to hide it all you want and let the years pass, letting all that anger of not getting what you want eat you while him and everybody else are enjoying their own happy lives because you are just too scared to actually show them how ugly your personality is. And you get pissed off when he, especially, doesn't get you. Of course, because he basically doesn't know you. And heads up on the male species, almost every sign would either mean what it looks like or register a "What does it mean?" to them. Why do you think many teen magazines show a girl how to make a guy fall for her? Duh, they're signs that a guy doesn't understand but get turned on with. They aren't Psychology majors so why treat them like they are? Him, that boy you've been annoyed with for a long time now doesn't read signs. And you wonder how he actually gets the girls, how he got you? Let's just say, to make you feel a little bit better, he knows how to play the gettin', just not the keepin'. If you want him to know how to keep you, happy and contented, admit that you are selfish. Admit that when he's around, you want him to be beside you, talking to you, his arm wrapped around your waist, sending a message, "Yeah, we're an item." Tell him straight to his face that you want a hug or some display of affection. Instead of waiting for him to hold you hand, hold his. What's stopping you? You have every right to do that, and no social rule says you can't do that. You tell people that if you want something you have to do something to attain it, waiting won't get you anywhere. Well, you're a false prophet for actually uttering such lines when you yourself have also been waiting. You call someone else pathetic for waiting, look here, dear, you're just as pathetic, if not more, as that person you have been insulting. Walk your crappy talk and maybe you'll earn the right to those words.

You know you're a jealous, possessive, and aggressive woman, so live up to those characteristics and maybe you'll be happier. Maybe you won't get so pissed off that easily. And maybe, you'll finally get what you want. And you wouldn't have to reach for your cellphone to look for another being of the opposite sex to release your anger upon over a few bottles of beer.